
Whatever I Am Is Whatever Is Looking Back at Me,
© Meri Utkovska
A CHAIN EXPLOSION
It’s fleeting
this being something matter-made
in the cold gut of eternal darkness.
See, the clouds no longer carry a burden,
grey, troublesome, solemn -
they carry nothing.
When I look at you
and your face fails to hide
your immaculate humanity,
somewhere, I’m sure, it dawns.
Concentric circles appear at the point of
transference -
water and skin.
Now, as part of the now
and as the wholeness of time’s fluidity.
Isn’t it strange?
How in the space of attempting to understand
our frailty, we become a no-thing,
that needs no understanding.
See, memory is but a story -
a chain explosion of voices, smells, feelings,
burnt pieces of bread,
and spilled coffee.
When I look into the palms of grief,
and the seasons of the Earth
and the depths of the cosmos
amalgamate, somewhere, I’m sure,
existence falls out of existing.
Broken up bird song appears at the point of
a fading day -
sound and air.
Now, as a part of me,
and as the wholeness of you -
you you you
as a part of me
and as the wholeness of all there is -
fleeting.
Copyright Credit: Meri Utkovska, "A Chain Explosion" from Fractured Perceptions (upcoming).
Copyright © by Meri Utkovska.






